I’m 31
& I’m
Officially
A Quitter
_________
Enough! I have decided that the Master’s program, despite my violent swings of
opinion about its’ usefulness and practicality for use in the real world, is a necessity that I will not permit myself to abandon. I started it, it is a big deal, and I need to finish it. I know right down to my bones that I will forever regret it if I drop out of the program. If for no other reason, I do my best to avoid the situations that I am certain will end up in the Pile of Regrets. I have, however, for the sake of my sanity and that of the lovely S, decided to drop my awful health psychology option. I have hated it since the moment it started mid-January, and regretted not dropping it while there was no financial consequence. However, now, to make a long story short, I’m done with it. On the bright side, I did manage to get out of it before they assigned me a grade for the course, which means it won’t affect my GPA.
Hard to explain the sense of relief I feel at not having to deal with the course anymore. 2 more months of it would have been the death of me (or at least my enthusiasm for school!). I hated the chat board, I hated the way the assignments were weighted and assigned, and I hated that there was no assigned meeting time. I also hated the crazy workload for a course that didn’t even have an assigned meeting time! I won’t do another asynchronous (i.e. no lecture, no discussion, all chat boards, ugh) course option, and will I ever ward anyone who asks off of them as well! I will have to figure out what to take in its place as an elective, but those diploma level courses that I originally scoffed at are looking better and better.
I don’t always finish everything I started. I try not to quit just because it’s hard, but if a book is boring – I put it down! If a movie makes me want to poke my eyes out – I turn it off! If my food tastes bad, I stop eating it! I want to enjoy the things in life I choose to have and do. Now sometimes you do have to suck it up and get through the yuck, all for the better in the end. Sometimes I end up on the wrong path and my choices don’t lead to the best outcomes, so I change direction and see where things go. Sometimes those wrong turns end up leading to places where I have made the biggest changes, the coolest discoveries about myself and the world. So screwin’ up or packin’ it in doesn’t have to be the worst thing that happens, so long as we all just keep on movin’.
opinion about its’ usefulness and practicality for use in the real world, is a necessity that I will not permit myself to abandon. I started it, it is a big deal, and I need to finish it. I know right down to my bones that I will forever regret it if I drop out of the program. If for no other reason, I do my best to avoid the situations that I am certain will end up in the Pile of Regrets. I have, however, for the sake of my sanity and that of the lovely S, decided to drop my awful health psychology option. I have hated it since the moment it started mid-January, and regretted not dropping it while there was no financial consequence. However, now, to make a long story short, I’m done with it. On the bright side, I did manage to get out of it before they assigned me a grade for the course, which means it won’t affect my GPA.Hard to explain the sense of relief I feel at not having to deal with the course anymore. 2 more months of it would have been the death of me (or at least my enthusiasm for school!). I hated the chat board, I hated the way the assignments were weighted and assigned, and I hated that there was no assigned meeting time. I also hated the crazy workload for a course that didn’t even have an assigned meeting time! I won’t do another asynchronous (i.e. no lecture, no discussion, all chat boards, ugh) course option, and will I ever ward anyone who asks off of them as well! I will have to figure out what to take in its place as an elective, but those diploma level courses that I originally scoffed at are looking better and better.
I don’t always finish everything I started. I try not to quit just because it’s hard, but if a book is boring – I put it down! If a movie makes me want to poke my eyes out – I turn it off! If my food tastes bad, I stop eating it! I want to enjoy the things in life I choose to have and do. Now sometimes you do have to suck it up and get through the yuck, all for the better in the end. Sometimes I end up on the wrong path and my choices don’t lead to the best outcomes, so I change direction and see where things go. Sometimes those wrong turns end up leading to places where I have made the biggest changes, the coolest discoveries about myself and the world. So screwin’ up or packin’ it in doesn’t have to be the worst thing that happens, so long as we all just keep on movin’.
2 comments:
Sometimes quitting is freedom. Unfortunately for me, quitting got to be a habit at times and it became a weight, something that undermined me, an excuse even before the question. It seems you thought it out. It seems you are in the freedom right now. Hope it carries you.
Hi WW. I too have much experience in the quitting department, though usually not around school stuff (I'm a bit of an edu-snob, school is really important to me). Exercise, dieting, less-TV, other things to improve my health - these things I tend to quit more easily and relexively. I hope that in the long term I will find that my decision to dump this course only has a one-time financial cost, and no other.
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